There and back again

It has been close to a year..almost a full circle. Back when I first got that little white invitation to do wonders for Him was I so excited. With youthful energy I started the race and continued to persevere through all that came my way.

A few months down the road, that little white invitation once again knocked on my door. Asking me to once again to take up the baton and continue on. Another year of responsiblity requires another large portion of wisdom and patience. And strength of which i am left wanting.

Where has all the vim and vigour of the days pasts gone to? It has totally dissolved and left a real void in its place. I know I must draw strength from Him to serve but the passion now is gone. Only shadows of it still remains. Tiredness too crept up during the long months. Perhaps a hint of frustration at things that did not went according to plan as well.

Too many times have the heart been broken by trivial affairs and work was the remedy for it all. Too afraid to tell anyone or maybe at times even admit it. All mounting up inside with no pressure valve to relieve it...Really hoping that I'll still be able to care for my little younglings without having my personal issues get mixed into them.

Praying that I made the right decision and for the return of the passion lost.