Wasted hours

Had high fever for a few days..itchy rashes all over the body..swollen lymph nodes..

These are my symptoms..

Asked Kerwin for a preliminary diagnosis..these were his questions..

1. Rash or fever first

2. Where does rash start initially

3.How itchy.

4. Sore throat?

5. Any sexual encounters lately?

6. Aching joints?

7. Rash is generalized or patchy

8. Stressed lately?

9. Sleeping late?

10. Loss of appetite?

11. Diarrhoea?

12. Running Nose?

13. Red Eye?

14. Ear Pain?

15. Whitish/bluish spot in your mouth?

Spent 15 minutes checking myself and answering him and he gave me a diagnosis..you have Dengue.

Spent another two hours waiting for my blood test results to be told the same thing.

Kerwin..you'll make a great doctor =)

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Oddly enough, I have been thinking about death quite alot these past few days. If I were given one question, no matter how absurd it may be and have it answered, it will be this.

When will I die?

No. I am not afraid to die. Death has no grip over me. But i do want to leave knowing that I have done everything there is to be done in this life. And to leave here without regrets. But I guess most importantly, I want to leave having able to see my closest family and friends one last time and to be able to have one last conversation with them. To be able to tell them my hopes and dreams for them, to tell them not to miss me too much and that I'll be watching them from above. To convey my gratitude and the impact they have made in my life. I feel that this is the best parting gift one can give to their loved ones. A conversation.