me

Have you ever felt really exposed? Stripped bare of all your defences. All curtains being torn down..and you are left all vulnerable and alone right in the centre...you are the topic of conversation and the study of all. The cloak which has been concealing you has been taken away for good and everyone is able to see through you. To allow known and unknown people access to your thoughts...your feelings...your heartaches and joys. To be read like a book and having to answer to their expectations of you. 

It's a scary and frightening feeling. Something which is totally new to me. Having to share your daily life and the affairs of the heart is a step which i am not prepared to take...at least not to all. Perhaps I have been too comfortable with the mask that I have been wearing in public. Absolving me from all hurts of this world and diminishing the enormity of predicaments that comes my way. The mask, protecting layers of undiscovered me. I know it is not possible to run along life with this facade. But... just a little longer....?